Life

Why???
I don't know what happen to me right now...
During test, I can answer the question..
but when get the result...
I'm shocked!!!!! You know what, I'm failed..
Especially for subject MEM461.. Other subjects, only 1 test..
reading test for third language.. failed also..
because that day, I've 3 test in 3 days..
And the day is Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.. But..
For test on Wednesday, Alhamdulillah... I scored it.
But for the couples day.. I don't know...

I can't remember when, I've retest..
I thought I could answer but when got the paper.. Failed again..
Very frustrated... then my lecturer said to me..
"Are you study or not?" Helo, I'm study ok.. But I don't know..
Maybe my answer not correctly because lack of explaination.. Maybe..
Then, I've got quiz also... Failed also... Ya, Allah...
I read 3 times before quiz.. But, my friends who always together with me..
She can answer.. She read only 1 times.. Maybe I'm confused..
Maybe.. really confused.. or maybe... nothing in my mind...
I don't know what happen to me... Right now, I feel... no spirit..
stupid sometimes, frustrated, and sad... I'm really sad... So sad..
Nobody know what I feel right now..
Because.. in front of them I can smile, laughing... But in my heart..
Only Allah knows... My lecture always shock when she looks my result..
I feel embarassed.. Tension.. and very pressure...
Maybe too much thinking or maybe... I do something wrong but I don't know..
Ya, Allah.. Please help me... I want to get the best result...
At least, no failed in all my subject...
Help me.. May Allah bless me..