Life

Why???
I don't know what happen to me right now...
During test, I can answer the question..
but when get the result...
I'm shocked!!!!! You know what, I'm failed..
Especially for subject MEM461.. Other subjects, only 1 test..
reading test for third language.. failed also..
because that day, I've 3 test in 3 days..
And the day is Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.. But..
For test on Wednesday, Alhamdulillah... I scored it.
But for the couples day.. I don't know...

I can't remember when, I've retest..
I thought I could answer but when got the paper.. Failed again..
Very frustrated... then my lecturer said to me..
"Are you study or not?" Helo, I'm study ok.. But I don't know..
Maybe my answer not correctly because lack of explaination.. Maybe..
Then, I've got quiz also... Failed also... Ya, Allah...
I read 3 times before quiz.. But, my friends who always together with me..
She can answer.. She read only 1 times.. Maybe I'm confused..
Maybe.. really confused.. or maybe... nothing in my mind...
I don't know what happen to me... Right now, I feel... no spirit..
stupid sometimes, frustrated, and sad... I'm really sad... So sad..
Nobody know what I feel right now..
Because.. in front of them I can smile, laughing... But in my heart..
Only Allah knows... My lecture always shock when she looks my result..
I feel embarassed.. Tension.. and very pressure...
Maybe too much thinking or maybe... I do something wrong but I don't know..
Ya, Allah.. Please help me... I want to get the best result...
At least, no failed in all my subject...
Help me.. May Allah bless me..

ssh klu kite nk ckp kt org pe kite rs.. adakala kite akn ubh skt
cter cz tu ar yg slalunyer cz kiter xdpt luah... nmn spe yg ngerti??
xde sapekn... yg tgl hny pendam perasaan jer.. tu ar mslhnyer..
kdg2 juga kite xnk diri kite dikongkong...
bl dh bpny.. mslh jg.. asyk2 kne berkepit..
perlu ke smue tu??? no freedom...
wtpe2 je smue xkne.. tu slh ni slh..
xlyn kang kte sombong r,, xpedulikan ar..
ei, blm khwn tu.. bosn kn khdpn cmtu.. huhu..
tp.. nthlh.. npe ssh sgt nk trgkn...



kdg2 pk... cm xpelh diam jelh.. tp smpi blkn...
smpi bl.. nnt smpi 1 thp dh xthn len pl jdnyer.. then nnt rs bersalah pula..
klu boleh xnaklh sakitkn hati org.. betul x??
namun adakala kiter yg silap cz sikap kite ni wt org xsenang.,..
aduh... manusia ni sememangnyer xpnh lari dr kesilapan..
namun bape rmi manusia yg sdr akn kesilapan dier...
btl x????
kesimpulannyer cmne???



spe yg nk tlg ni???
ader 1 kes ni...
mslhnyer org tu lwn jntina dgn kite..
dier ni bek sgt.. sgt bek ar..
nmn ader ar 1 tu cm xsng tp stkt tu x mjejaskn kebaikan dier thdp org len..
aduh, bl org dh bek dgn kite then kite nk btau slp dier pyh cz..
die dh bek sgt n byk sgt kiter thtg dgn dier..
cmne tu???
who can help me???
mmmm... stkt tu jelh...
hrp2.. Allah faham pe yg ak rs skrg ni cz ak dlm dilema..
harap2 hatiku dikuatkn..
kuatknlah imanku.. ya, Allah..
smga aku sentiasa taat padamu ya, Allah...
ampunkanlh dosa ku andai terwt org sakit hati...
dan melanggari laranganMU...
Mmmmm.... inilah kehidupan kiter smuer...

juz nk share dgn all of my viewer...
let's watch my cutest hamster's video...
don't be shy... plz stay with my vdeo..



so cute..

Huhu... Bukan senang nak bela hamster ni..
Stat bela masa raye hari tu..
Mula2 bela 3 ekor jer (Cik Mina, Upin and Ipin) .. now, 6 ekor..
Sepatutnyer byk lagi tp smue dh kne makan and mati..
plg sedih Theodore pergi meninggalkan ku... sedinyer.. sob sob...



Ms bln 11 kot xsilap 17hb Cik Mina (yg wrna putih tu) beranak.. 6 ekor..
lme2 tgl 2 ekor cz dier makan.. beselah hamster makan anknyer..
anknyer yg hidup Theodore and putih.. excited ms dpt ank tikus pertama..



Theodore and Putih dh besau



Putih and Theodore kecik2



xlme kemudian klu xsilap mse raye aji before tulh. Cik Mina beranak lg.. ada 6 ekor juga tp mlm die beranak die mkn sekor tgl 5 ekor jer...
Maka.. kitaorg pun membela 5 ekor tu.. Sampai satu saat smue anak2nyer tu dh ader bulu skit... Anak dier kali ni.... Lain2 sikit wrna bulunyer..
1 hari tu dok kt rmh.. yelh cuti sem.. dgn Mak ar.. My job adalah mandikn tikus...
So, mandikanlh smuernyer.. ank2 tikus pn mandikn juga (mak yg suruh).. kelakar rupa ank2 dier tu.. kesejukan.. Lepas tu cepat2 letak dlm habuk kayu bg dier sejukkan tgk cm pyh juga letak ar mak dier. Tb2. mak die (cik Mina) cam org kelaparan makan 2 ekor ank dier.. before tu (xsilap mlm tu) dier makan ank dier lg sekor.. Ish2.. sian btl.. tkt ms tu tgk.. Tgl ar Shiro and Shirota.. 2 ekor ni rupa mcm mak dier.. nakal and hyperactive.. pnt betui.. nakal pl tu.. pnh skali Shirota berjaya melarikan diri teror betui.. nakal betul...



ni Shiro and shirota ntah mana ar gambar dier..

Xlme kemudian ms blk rmh hari tu 9 Jan Cik Mina beranak lg.. semalamnyer.. Theodore mati... 6 ekor.. tp kali ni ank dier kecik sangat... tgk ank dier bdgt dptlh pengganti Theodore.. rupa2nyer x... hbs dimakan... masa pg Ahad tgl 5.. hari Isnin mkn sekor lagi... hari rabu pula makan 2 ekor.. tgl ar sekor.. Ms tu mak pk nk letak nm Sinchan cz wrna putih lagi.. malangnyer hari Khamis jam 6.50 pg si Putih ku sayang makan ank Cik Mina iaitu adik2nyer.. adui... nakai betul.. nk kne beb ni..
tp nk wt cmne.. Cik Mina suka gigit Putih.. tu yg Putih geram kot.. Akhirnyer.. matilh smue ank2 tikusku and tiadalah pengganti Theodore... sedih betui..
maka tinggallah ar 6 ekor jer..



nilah 6 ekor yg tinggal





anak2 tikus masa bape hari ntah

Theodore dh mati...
sdhnyer... sian dier.. hari2 kne cakar dgn mak dier.. (cik Mina)
jht betui cik Mina eh.. pukui kang br tau..
Theodore ni hamster plg comey n baik sgt..
My family syg sgt dgn Theodore cz.. comeylh..





Theodore yg dh mati

ms die mati sgt sedih..
bdn dier bsh kt bhgn bwh msa mati.. cmtu ke ar hamster mati..
xsempat tgk dier beranak dh mati..

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Theodore mati pagi tu..

Theodore sk men and kuat mkn.. bdn dier comey.. ooo.. my baby...
sian dier mati... sedih btl.. stp kali tgk gmbr dier mst sdh punyer and nangis..



masa Theodore kecik2..

yelh first time hamster mati yg plg syg pl tu..